Heal

I am going through the Heal book now. I always have something I am doing in the area of food and eating in addition to regular Bible reading. This is so good. Right now I am going through Psalm 139 a verse at a time just like the Heal book suggests. There is so much growth in this for me. To read and pray about each verse and journal about how this applies to my weight and eating.

wow

Wow! This month has gone fast! It has been almost a month since I have posted. God has been dealing with me about many things. I have been on my face and knees confessing my sins. Sins of rebellion associated with the overeating. Sins of laziness and selfishness. It became very clear to me that when I deliberately disobey God in these areas it is rebellion. I was horrified by this. I am so glad He is a loving God and that we if we His people who are called by His Name will humble ourselves and pray and seek His face and turn from our wicked ways then He will forgive our sins and heal our land. I feel cleansed and refreshed after doing this. I also notice that my eating goes better when I walk more closely with Him.

vacation and step 12

Vacation was wonderful and I actually released 2 pounds this month. This is about exactly the weight that is good for me.
I enjoyed all of my favorite foods within the parameters of 0 and 5.
Something that is coming to me is that doing step 12, sharing this message with others, is absolutely essential to my healing.

vacation

I am going on vacation for a week. One of the things I enjoy about TW is that I never gain weight on vacation. I eat all of the foods I enjoy within the parameters of hunger and satisfaction and pray and seek the guidance of the Lord.
It is so neat that food is no longer the focus but relationship with God and family are the focus on vacation.
The changes are gradual but they come with time as I stick with it.

The joy of obedience

There really is joy in obedience. I have really struggled with eating between hunger and satisfaction for breakfast and at bedtime. This has shown up in a little weight gain. I spent a lot of time in prayer the night before last and asked the Lord to help me just for the next day to be obedient.
It was 915 before I reached hunger. I usually get up and eat no matter what but continued in prayer and was able to not give into temptation. Instead of the usual hunger at about 1030 requiring a snack, I was not hungry. Then at lunch it took very little to get me to a point of satisfaction. I felt such joy.
If I sense this kind of joy over one act of obedience in this area there must be joy if I seek to be obedient in other areas as well.
The other thing I feel like the Lord is once again speaking to me is that my motives are to be for His glory. That is when this will work. Sure diets help people release weight even if the motive is a smaller size, but we as Christians need to want this for the glory of God. When someone asks or notices it is a tool I can use to lead them to the Lord or into a deeper relationship with Him.

Jeremiah 29

In early prayer I had been praying to the Lord and confessing my sins and telling Him how helpless I am to help myself in the area of eating and in the indirect way I express my anger.
Just when I think I am making progress I stumble.
I opened my Bible during early prayer and there before my eyes was Jer. 29 verses 11 through 14. For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me in earnest , you will find me when you seek me. I will be found by you, says the Lord. I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and bring you home again to your land.
In times of trouble when I feel I am not making progress in these areas of my life God has not forgotten me. God may be preparing me, as He did the people of Judah, for a new beginning with Him.
May this first day of March, where there is hope of Spring, be a new beginning.

Seeking His Plan

I was so touched by a post on the TW forums. There was a lively discussion going on about 2 different Christian weight loss programs. About which was best, pros and cons etc.
Someone posted that all of the authors are human and therefore err. That only God is perfect and we need to go to Him for our guidance.
This is so true. He wants me to be at my ideal weight. He created us, He loves us, and He will show us the way for our lives if only we will trust Him and obey.
To obey does not mean I have to be perfect. It means I need to confess and repent on a regular basis and follow His guidance as He directs in the Word and as He speaks to my heart.